protected post.those on my list go read it there.you know who you are.

this week was definately better than last week. i have only been here two weeks and it feels like ive been here longer.still, eight weeks seems like forever.

i am the internet cafe and i am staring at some art work.one painting shows a plea saying, “usa we need peace“. then theres pictures of bush and our congress. theres alot of red in the painting.then on the right of the painting there is jesus.its actually a very beautiful and abstract painting.its quite powerful.ive talked to a few locals here.its very interesting to hear their perception of the united states.it is not a good one.

this weekend i am going to a local island.well, if the weather permits.i am enjoying my classroom and i have been learning much about african culture.oh, its sooo facinating.the afro-brazilian culture is beautiful.

i have alot of extra time here.i need more books!

i am in brazil now.gosh so many emotions these past few days.i am too exhausted to even begin to articulate.this will definately be a growing experience.today it rained.i am still in awe that i can be in tank while its raining. it started to rain while i was in my classroom. i peeked through the door…people were playing soccer in the rain!!! so much fun.i felt like joining, but first,i dont know the language and second, i had to finish my lesson on colors.

the kids are beautiful and i want to take them home with me.today was a long and exhausting day, but it was great.certain children can really make this job worth it.today i was reminded why i want to go into teaching.still, i feel a struggle with in. my heart breaks to see the conditions of these schools and communities.do i really want to do this for the rest of my life.a part of me says…yes!instead of complaining about poverty and injustice i want to do my part.still, another part of me says no.selfishness kicks in and i am left at a state of confusion. all in all, being here brings back the same feelings i had in india.the feeling of hopelessness.what can i do?i dont know.sigh.